Reading a link to a site where there's a blog post protesting another blog's treatment of disabled women...where the protesting blog's layout isn't readable with larger text. *headdesk*

I just horrendously bombed the language test, I'm sure. *groans* So much for points to help me through the QEP. Now I have to get through on the basis of my PNQs and background, which is...less than stellar compared to most applicants. :( I feel like I've blown my only chance this year.

Dryers in laundry facilities that do not DRY clothes. *grump* If something is labeled as a dryer, is it to much to expect for it to DRY things? Now I have to put clothing items one-by-one in front of my fan. >:O

I PASSED THE FSOT!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!

Also, why are the PNQs so SHORT? Bleh.

I just totally confused a psych major. He doesn't understand how I can reliably catch things without any 3D vision. *giggles* We even tried it with one eye closed.

I also feel somewhat embarrassed for my country after several Chinese students told me that my Chinese is better than most of the consular officers'. My Chinese is HORRIBLE.

First snow flurry this morning at around 10:30. October 10th? Really? *sigh* Wisconsin...

I was told by a Chinese student that my Chinese was better than some of the FSOs in the consulates in China. I'm not sure what I think about this; on one hand, yay for me, but on the other my Chinese SUCKS.

As of yesterday, the FSOT is over for now. I think I did alright; I put my chances at about 50/50 to pass. I did okay on the job knowledge, I kicked the verbal's butt, and I wrote a good essay; the only part I'm not sure about is the Bio part. I feel like my examples aren't as strong as most people's. But I have to wait until Nov. anyway, so I'm putting it in the back of my mind for now.

If I don't pass the process this year, I think I'm going to go get an MLS. It'd buy me two more years to not have to pay my student loans and to try to get into the FS, and I'm already experienced enough in library work that I would get in. So that's a plan. I don't need the GRE, which pleases me.

I also made my first mashed potato today. It was good, though I used too much garlic. I'm going to have the leftovers for lunch with some cheddar added in.

I'm fairly certain I got a D on my first physics midterm. After getting As on the homework and an 80 percent on the quiz (Oh! And 90s on the lab reports!). I hate classes that give you trick questions just to fuck with you.

I finally gave in and turned on the heat in my apartment. Farewell, summer, we hardly knew ye. *sigh*

Impromptu Project: Deep Clean My Kitchen has hit a snag: I'm out of rags. I did manage to clean the entire stove and oven, though I need new drip pans. So. Disgusting. I wonder if the previous tenants ever cleaned it. (I was informed by my own mother that she's NEVER cleaned her oven, and they've been living in that house for SIXTEEN YEARS *shudder*) It's not perfect, but it's so much better than it was. I need to go buy more cleaning supplies, then move the fridge. Huzzah!

I'm also ahead in all of my classes except for Arabic, which I am merely caught up on.

My physics lab partner should not be in college. She can't do algebra. I mean that legitimately. This is not the difficult high school stuff even; this is simple one variable plug-ins and deduce. Stuff people get in 7th grade. She actually asked me if I was a math major simply because I can find the average of a group of numbers. D:

(For the record, I don't believe that everybody needs to be versed in all academic disciplines. But the girl is having trouble understanding when/how to do arithmatic. And you need that to live an adult life, just like I believe all people should be (and have the opportunity to be) literate.)

FSOT in a week! O________________o

I had a dream Noam Chomsky slapped me in the face during class.

Oktoberfest patrons are annoying. What redeems it, however, is that they're all getting soaked while I watch them from inside my nice, warm, dry apartment.

I feel like it's more summer now than it was in July and August. It was 79 outside earlier. Thing is, I love warm weather. There is one hitch, though: It makes me nocturnal. Luckily, I have an Ambien prescription, so I can reset my sleep schedule on Sunday nights. (I do refuse to use it more than twice a week: No drug addictions for me, woo.)


Right now it's 8:30 and I'm about to go grocery shopping. Then clean and do some physics. I'll probably be up until 2 or 3 in the morning. I really wish it would cool down so I could sleep like a normal person (I go to bed when it gets cold in the fall, which coincides nicely with the fact that I have early classes.)

I'm officially taking the Foreign Service Written Examination on October 7th at 12:00.

I can't believe I'm doing this. O_O

Turns out I have to wait until the 8th to sign up for a testing date/site. I'm so nervous that there won't be space because mine is the last "group" to get our emails. If I don't get to take it, I'll cry. For serious.

I've been having issues with vanity and being materialistic lately. I need to do some thinking on how I'm going to curb this: I like for my appearance and my possessions to grow out of the rest of my life, not dictate it.

In terms of my appearance I've been trying to tie my healthier eating habits and my exercise to my weight, which is unhealthy (I don't want to be neurotically obsessed with my weight). What I really want to do is recalibrate my thinking to focus on how much healthier I am when I do those things, how much better I feel, and how it will help me in the future.

I also find myself wanting things for no reason other to have them, even though I know that those things in and of themselves won't make me happy. Perhaps I should pick up a hobby to refocus on what I do instead of what I have. Ideas?

My mother just told me I don't deserve to eat.

God I hate my family.